Decisions, fears, putting it out there....

[domestic goddess]

I am so on the fence about doing a fast. Part of me says how can I do it now, when I am on Rx's and trying to heal my body *with* food, part of me says now would be a perfect time. I was up most of the night thinking/praying about this. I was thinking of starting tomorrow but...now I just don't know. I have many emotions coming up with this also. Like, once I start there is no turning back. But why would I want to turn back? I am afraid...afraid of what though? Afraid of being healthy? afraid that once I am healthy I will be responsible to stay that way and I can't go back to any of my 'disordered' eating habits? But, isn't that the point? I also read a bunch of Angela Stokes stuff which stirred alot up in me as well. She speaks alot about addiction and OA and I don't overeat per se, but I do have obsessive-compulsive eating 'issues' as I think that is a factor in bulemia. So, bottom line? I am afraid. I am afraid to do a fast. I am not afraid of the hunger or the results, I am afraid of the process. There. I said it. Now, where to go from here?

[RawVee]

I am so on the fence about doing a fast. Part of me says how can I do it now, when I am on Rx's and trying to heal my body *with* food, part of me says now would be a perfect time. I was up most of the night thinking/praying about this. I was thinking of starting tomorrow but...now I just don't know. I have many emotions coming up with this also. Like, once I start there is no turning back. But why would I want to turn back? I am afraid...afraid of what though? Afraid of being healthy? afraid that once I am healthy I will be responsible to stay that way and I can't go back to any of my 'disordered' eating habits? But, isn't that the point? I also read a bunch of Angela Stokes stuff which stirred alot up in me as well. She speaks alot about addiction and OA and I don't overeat per se, but I do have obsessive-compulsive eating 'issues' as I think that is a factor in bulemia. So, bottom line? I am afraid. I am afraid to do a fast. I am not afraid of the hunger or the results, I am afraid of the process. There. I said it. Now, where to go from here?

Goddess,

Jumping off the cliff is the hardest part. You have to have faith that the net is going to be there. But one thing you absolutely need to do before you fast is to *want* to be there. Our minds are very powerful things, and if you have the least bit of fear or doubt going into this, your body will respond. You can't think of this as a "no turning back" situation...you can certainly turn back. If your body is having adverse reactions to no meds, it is up to you to decide whether it's just detoxing or something more serious.

The process of fasting, to be sure, sucks for the first few days. But what sucks even more is not letting go of that which doesn't serve us anymore.

Find peace in your mind about fasting, and it will be a peaceful fast. :)

[domestic goddess]

Thank you. You are absolutely right :)

[domestic goddess]

I am going to do the 92 day Juice Feast. I have prayed about it and I now KNow that this is what I need to do, and am at peace with my decision. I am hoping to do the whole thing, but am setting small goals and will take it day by day. I would like to commit to 2 weeks and go from there. I am excited and nervous but looking forward to the amazing healing I know I will experience. :D

[star1919]

In the section of Personal Journals... Gwena is doing a 100 day juice feast. She has good information, positive thoughts and links to a video journal she's also doing. And, as you say... you can see how you're feeling as you go along. Wishing you a positive healing journey and fast! :D