Emotional detox?

[Firicia]

Well I am starting 100% raw march 1st (or today if I can) but I've been trying all month long. In this past month I've had more fruits and veggies then I had in a year. While I'm not 100% yet I find myself overwhemled with emotions which is why I got scared all month long trying to be raw and went back to SAD to stuff those feelings down. Anyone else go through this?


My Story so far:

I just feel like I've been needing to be fat and unemotional to be in the relationship I'm in with my bf, and the place I am in my life which is scared and not knowing what to do with my life. Although my bf's gotten a lot nicer now, I still keep cutting myself off and shutting off. I guess I'm worried I'll come out of this a different person and not want to be his life partner anymore. Not only that but all these feelings I have for the guy who was pretty much as close to the one as I have ever gotten to keep poping up. We aren't at a place in our lives, maybe our whole life, to be together. Last year me and my bf broke up for a while and I hung out with that guy who I think is the one and I never felt more loved and amazing, but I still went back to a relationship which at the time was bad. I have been stuffing that down with food for so long, especially knowing that there is someone out there who told me they think I am the most amazing and wonderful beautiful and talented person they have ever met and that they will love me until breathe no longer enters thier body. It was nice to hang out with him...

Wow I'm sorry, I guess that was a little rant or something. Has anyone else gone through this? How did you get over being scared of everything possibly changing? Maybe this is just normal 21 year old feelings? Thanks.

[Amberly]

Hi. I used to cut and burn myself, but I don't even think about it now that my focus is on raw. Was in rehab for alcohol in '03 (Has it been that long??!! Wow! ) It could happen that your life will change significantly. If you are thinner and healthier you may have a different outlook and not want to be with that person anymore. But if the time comes when you don't want to be, then you wont want to be, so why do you worry about that? You will experience many new feelings, yeah, some emotional detox, but they are fabulous and positive feelings and changes. No need to deny yourself. I had quit that stuff almost a year before becoming raw, but raw got it out of my head completely. I think I did it because of a lack of control and a lack of direction, just plain frustration. Maybe the same for you?

[sweepea32]

Similiar things have happened to me this past month with trying to go raw. I am nowhere near 100%-but like you have increased my fruits and veggies substantially and have had lots of emotional detox. Email me if you want and I will fill you in on more of this.


Mary

[mercystreet]

I've read so many accounts of similar situations to yours. When a person starts to change and to grow, they can often find themselves in a different place to those close to them, and it's not uncommon for relationships to end and for friendships to drift apart. When I started to change, I came to the conclusion that my relationship was no longer what I needed in my life, and that ultimately it was making me unhappy and would continue to do so. I too found myself dreaming about other people who just seemed more supportive and to understand me so much better. I had pretty much decided to end it - we just seemed to be poles apart. And then a strange thing happened. My partner started to change too. So now we're both headed in the same direction, and we're each taking responsibility for our own journey. We're still taking it one day at a time. Perhaps you should take a step back, and just wait awhile....

Try to take your focus off the other guy for the moment - it's easy to get caught up thinking the grass is greener. Ask yourself what it is that you need in a partner, what boxes do you need ticked. Maybe you need time to be without a relationship, so that you can get to know the part of yourself that's emerging.