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Beckla
01-24-2007, 12:57 PM
Figured I'd share a little of my history and how I landed here for those that are interested (or, like me, seeking new and exciting ways to procrastinate at the office).

Basics: I'm 32 and work in public policy in Boston. I've been married since the fall of 04 to a gentle giant who works for NPR. He's not raw - the boy lives for meat - but he IS completely supportive.

I became a "pescatarian" at 16. Gave up all meat except fish. Stayed that way until this December. By then, I'd gained 50 or so pounds and was miserable.

I grew up an athlete. Swimming, gymnastics, track - competed year round through high school. Then I got to college and discovered the dining hall. I gained about 40 pounds and came home completely changed.

The summer after my junior year in college, while working at a summer camp, I developed what I thought was a diet - and now know was an eating disorder. By the time I got back to school, I'd dropped 50 lbs and was 120. (I'm 5'5). People were shocked by my appearance - but I got lots of praise for it and figured I was doing something right. Being back at school, the "diet" was much harder to maintain. I was no longer running around after campers and teaching daily swimming lessons. So I became even more vigilant. In addition to starving myself, I began purging whatever I did permit myself to eat.

This continued for quite a few years. In law school, friends often expressed sincere concern about my frail appearance. My skin was horrendous and I even went on Accutane (if you don't know - a very powerful drug with some horrible side effects). My skin cleared up after 6 months of treatment - but it didn't last.

During the spring of 04, with my wedding approaching, I started to worry about being slim enough for my gown, etc. A good friend directed me to a "diet" program that I won't name (but Alissa does cite the author in her book). The basic gist was a focus on protein and carbs in healthy amounts plus weight training and cardio.

The inches melted away. At the wedding I was a size 4. (my pic on the profile was one my husband took on our honeymoon)

Since the wedding, I've let myself go. There have been some trying family circumstances, but to blame that would be disingenuous. Bottom line: I got lazy and gluttonous and.. fat.

By December, I had just bought the first pair of size 16 pants (hurts to type) in my entire life.

Then a friend - a raw food enthusiast along with his wife - came to visit. And my world changed.

So that's me in a (long winded) nutshell. Very glad to be here with all of you.

RedOrchid
01-24-2007, 05:11 PM
I'm new as well and trying to come back from that dreaded size 16.
:eek:

I wish you all the best in your raw journey.

Beckla
01-25-2007, 07:16 AM
Thanks so much! We'll beat it together, eh? Best of luck to you, too!!

adrienne
01-25-2007, 07:37 AM
Thank you for sharing your story Beckla - it is amazing how freeing raw can be. I wish you lots of success on your journey. It is great to have you here at RFT and I hope we meet soon!
Adrienne

Dancer
01-25-2007, 07:50 AM
Thanks for your story. Mine is similar and I just bought my first pair of size 18 pants this fall. Very humilating since I have watch my mom's obesity all through my younger years and swore I would never be as big as her. I think she went up into the high 20's so I can still keep that promise to myself if I do something about it now.

And I, like you, could blame a million things.. I quit smoking in November of 2000, I stopped teaching dance in 2003, I work on a computer all day, blah, blah, blah. But like you, it was completely me. I got lazy and fat!

I dabled in raw food last year and felt the best I ever felt. Then I went over to the dark side in a very big way for the rest of 2006. I am back in the light and on my way to healing myself from the inside out.

Best wishes to you and again, thanks for sharing!
Dancer

Beckla
01-25-2007, 09:39 AM
A - hope we meet soon, too. Glad to be here.

Dancer... I hear you loud and clear. This time we'll make it, eh? Sending good vibes your way for continued success and happiness!

spicyfull
01-25-2007, 12:19 PM
Put the stick up, you were on the wrong path, everything is a Journey, NOW you have been directed to the RIGHT Path to continue on your Journey. You are armed and learning how to use your weapons.......

KNOWLEDGE IS POWER......

I wish you everything you need to Stay RAW....Welcome to MY World......

rawpriestess
02-07-2007, 04:16 PM
Welcome welcome welcome