Nimmanu
01-23-2007, 12:51 PM
Hi, I've got a strange story, I guess...
A few years ago, I started trying to get healthy. I started out studying everything, and finally started a steady routine of body building. I loved it, I felt great, looked great, etc.
Perhaps as a result of starting to become healthier, my periods became regular, for the first time in my life. Well, last January, my period was late. Because I have severe endometriosis (and the doctors had wanted to take my uterus repeatedly because of it), I can't get pregnant.
The thing is, when you can't get pregnant, every time your period is late, there's this surging hope that I can actually have that incredible, impossible miracle happen. Of course, it didn't.
In February, I had a dream. In the dream, I was in a zen-like temple. A monk was sitting in front of me, and he offered me two glasses of water. In one, which I knew to be perfectly pure water, was a minnow. The other glass of water was horrifyingly contaminated, I knew, even though it looked pure.
Even though it was contaminated, the second glass of water did not contain a living creature. I selected that glass of water. The monk nodded, and I knew I had made the right choice.
He said just one thing to me, "Do no harm to any living thing. You will know when the change is to come about."
That month, my period was late again. Only this time, the great impossible miracle had happened, I was pregnant. I thought that was the time to change, and began a vegetarian diet. I immediately got horribly ill, and received in another dream, the message, "Not yet."
My baby was born on Halloween, a lovely 8 lb. little girl. I again tried the changeover, and I again received the message, "Not yet." In the meantime, I began to ask around, and someone told me about Allissa's book. I was reminded a week ago of it, and I have now ordered it. I have received no message, but I feel comfortable and content with the feeling that, "Now is the time."
So, when I receive her book in the mail, I will begin the journey.
May we all find the journey filled with joy. :)
~ Nim
A few years ago, I started trying to get healthy. I started out studying everything, and finally started a steady routine of body building. I loved it, I felt great, looked great, etc.
Perhaps as a result of starting to become healthier, my periods became regular, for the first time in my life. Well, last January, my period was late. Because I have severe endometriosis (and the doctors had wanted to take my uterus repeatedly because of it), I can't get pregnant.
The thing is, when you can't get pregnant, every time your period is late, there's this surging hope that I can actually have that incredible, impossible miracle happen. Of course, it didn't.
In February, I had a dream. In the dream, I was in a zen-like temple. A monk was sitting in front of me, and he offered me two glasses of water. In one, which I knew to be perfectly pure water, was a minnow. The other glass of water was horrifyingly contaminated, I knew, even though it looked pure.
Even though it was contaminated, the second glass of water did not contain a living creature. I selected that glass of water. The monk nodded, and I knew I had made the right choice.
He said just one thing to me, "Do no harm to any living thing. You will know when the change is to come about."
That month, my period was late again. Only this time, the great impossible miracle had happened, I was pregnant. I thought that was the time to change, and began a vegetarian diet. I immediately got horribly ill, and received in another dream, the message, "Not yet."
My baby was born on Halloween, a lovely 8 lb. little girl. I again tried the changeover, and I again received the message, "Not yet." In the meantime, I began to ask around, and someone told me about Allissa's book. I was reminded a week ago of it, and I have now ordered it. I have received no message, but I feel comfortable and content with the feeling that, "Now is the time."
So, when I receive her book in the mail, I will begin the journey.
May we all find the journey filled with joy. :)
~ Nim