Davylp25
01-06-2007, 01:21 AM
Okay just wanted to say since I know so many people are new and starting out and being pulled in so many raw directions of what's healthy and whats not, dehy or not, supplements, or not, really raw or not... I have been there... Just wanted to share this story.
This past Christmas I took a woman I know who lives on the street out for dinner on christmas. The only thing close was a Denny's. So I have known Denny for a long time. We were amazing lovers back in the day. I saw her often, especially when I first moved to Los Angeles. I saw her everyday, her friends that worked there knew me by name. Knew my top ten picks. Either cheese sticks with large fries, Cheeseburger fries, No tomatoe, SuperBird, with a side of gravy , or Garlic toast. Oh and keep the refills of Soda coming! Ahhhh my great love. Everyday almost, or every other day, or once a week. She was a big part of my life....
So as I approached my old love, I remembered all those days and nights I would visit her. So as me and this woman we're sitting down, I was buzzing through the menu and NOTHING,,, NOT ONE THING appealed to me. I didn't think OH I WISH I... OR OH WHY CANT I... I just thought, Nothing appeals 2 me. I wasn't being dogmatic either, I thought before I came there, Well heck David it's Christmas, 1 day, just have something.... But still.... I know I coulda had a salad, coulda ordered something along those lines... But I didnt want 2. I didnt care 2. I knew I could make a better one at home, with a fresh healthy dressing.
The smell of the food permeated the air.... NOTHING. Yet that critical voice of, IF ONLY THEY KNEW, BLAH BLAH, wasn't there. I was very suprised. I just was sooooo not interested in passing judgements on myself or others for eating it or not. Then I realized, looking at the place and the menu and pics of my old loves, That I have grown and changed, and once you know things, you can never go back. I have gone 2 far. It was liberating. So I ordered an orange juice, and assured the lady, I dont mean to be rude, but Im not hungry, but you can get whatever you like my luv... anything. I'm just not hungry. So she did. And as the night progressed and she offered one of my old loves --garlic bread, I declined with grace.
I HAVE CHANGED.
Being there, seeing the old food, and smelling the aroma's, It was like seeing an old love... that you used to be soooooo in Love with, yet when you see them again years later, U feel nothing but the old memories. You realize I HAVE CHANGED... I HAVE EVOLVED, I HAVE LIVED....
So I say this to those who are struggling... YOU WILL GET THERE... Just keep cleaning the house... yes as u dig things up you will remember them and be tempted to keep them, but keep tossing, and let the light and energy in. You can do it!
Take care!
This past Christmas I took a woman I know who lives on the street out for dinner on christmas. The only thing close was a Denny's. So I have known Denny for a long time. We were amazing lovers back in the day. I saw her often, especially when I first moved to Los Angeles. I saw her everyday, her friends that worked there knew me by name. Knew my top ten picks. Either cheese sticks with large fries, Cheeseburger fries, No tomatoe, SuperBird, with a side of gravy , or Garlic toast. Oh and keep the refills of Soda coming! Ahhhh my great love. Everyday almost, or every other day, or once a week. She was a big part of my life....
So as I approached my old love, I remembered all those days and nights I would visit her. So as me and this woman we're sitting down, I was buzzing through the menu and NOTHING,,, NOT ONE THING appealed to me. I didn't think OH I WISH I... OR OH WHY CANT I... I just thought, Nothing appeals 2 me. I wasn't being dogmatic either, I thought before I came there, Well heck David it's Christmas, 1 day, just have something.... But still.... I know I coulda had a salad, coulda ordered something along those lines... But I didnt want 2. I didnt care 2. I knew I could make a better one at home, with a fresh healthy dressing.
The smell of the food permeated the air.... NOTHING. Yet that critical voice of, IF ONLY THEY KNEW, BLAH BLAH, wasn't there. I was very suprised. I just was sooooo not interested in passing judgements on myself or others for eating it or not. Then I realized, looking at the place and the menu and pics of my old loves, That I have grown and changed, and once you know things, you can never go back. I have gone 2 far. It was liberating. So I ordered an orange juice, and assured the lady, I dont mean to be rude, but Im not hungry, but you can get whatever you like my luv... anything. I'm just not hungry. So she did. And as the night progressed and she offered one of my old loves --garlic bread, I declined with grace.
I HAVE CHANGED.
Being there, seeing the old food, and smelling the aroma's, It was like seeing an old love... that you used to be soooooo in Love with, yet when you see them again years later, U feel nothing but the old memories. You realize I HAVE CHANGED... I HAVE EVOLVED, I HAVE LIVED....
So I say this to those who are struggling... YOU WILL GET THERE... Just keep cleaning the house... yes as u dig things up you will remember them and be tempted to keep them, but keep tossing, and let the light and energy in. You can do it!
Take care!