Bottomless Pit?

[Lunar*Fey]

For a while, I really wasn't hungry much at all (had to force it down any way though of course, because of my situation). But lately my hunger has been like a bottomless pit, I am rarely full. Sometimes I am in a situation where I am slightly hungry but cannot eat at the time (ex: school) so after a little while the slight hunger turns to a bloaty full feeling and I feel kind of sick and out of it. So then when I can eat I eat and finish but always want more more more. I am rarely fully satiated. But I ignore this and end up never really satiated (lately) and this is because I have a fear of running out of food in the house and no one getting me more. Any way, do you tihnk that its possible that I just don't remember what fullness feels like, or I am eating emotionally or out of boredom, or something along the lines of a false hunger?
or maybe I am having a growth spurt? I am afraid that if I am having a growth spurt or something I will hurt my body because I am not completely listening to its signals? Or maybe I am just so used to over-stuffing myself (and still not gaining! gr) that I don't know what it feels like to eat comfortably? I get no exercise right now so I don;t think that could have anything to do with it.
sorry this entry is all over the place...

any help/advice is appreciated! thanks!

[Sunshine9]

Hey Lunar*Fey,

I feel for you because I've been there... most of high school is a memory of being continually hungry no matter how much or how often I ate. I'm not quite sure what to suggest because I think there are so many factors that probably contribute to why you feel that way.

Could be a phase... hormones (I know I am ravenous at different times of the month)... healing... sugars

I will throw in that eating more protein is a factor for some people. I'm one of them. I could eat fruit, fat, and greens until I'm sick and still crave something. That missing link for me is protein. So maybe try some raw protein powder, sprouts, hemp seeds, spirulina, or something like that and see if you feel satisfied. What are you eating otherwise?

My feeling is that you're not actually craving more food, but rather something you aren't getting enough of, or something your body just needs more of...

So many factors... just take a deep breath, eat what you like, and be gentle with yourself

Love,
Sunshine

[SmilingRawDancer]

For a while, I really wasn't hungry much at all (had to force it down any way though of course, because of my situation). But lately my hunger has been like a bottomless pit, I am rarely full. Sometimes I am in a situation where I am slightly hungry but cannot eat at the time (ex: school) so after a little while the slight hunger turns to a bloaty full feeling and I feel kind of sick and out of it. So then when I can eat I eat and finish but always want more more more. I am rarely fully satiated. But I ignore this and end up never really satiated (lately) and this is because I have a fear of running out of food in the house and no one getting me more. Any way, do you tihnk that its possible that I just don't remember what fullness feels like, or I am eating emotionally or out of boredom, or something along the lines of a false hunger?
or maybe I am having a growth spurt? I am afraid that if I am having a growth spurt or something I will hurt my body because I am not completely listening to its signals? Or maybe I am just so used to over-stuffing myself (and still not gaining! gr) that I don't know what it feels like to eat comfortably? I get no exercise right now so I don;t think that could have anything to do with it.
sorry this entry is all over the place...

any help/advice is appreciated! thanks!

What she said. I totally relate to your post!
Especially the fear of running out of food in the house! It almost feels like abnormal paranoia or something :-\

[luckitri]

I was still growing in my mid-twenties so you probably are still growing too. Just because you don't see it in weight gain does not mean that your body is not growing and changing - maybe it is doing it on the inside. I buy the protein idea also. Maybe your body is having to adapt all over again due to recent events. Could be the cold weather that your body wants to protect?

[rawfigure]

it is possible you are experiencing a Metabolic Increase to eating more...and maybe more active too ? :D You are still at the age where you can grow so This is a good thing.

[veganman]

Hey Lunar*Fey -

I can relate to what you are describing. It ebbs and flows for me. Some weeks, depending on my digestion, I am very hungry. Other weeks, not so much.

[DavidZaneMason]

Opinion:

-If you KNOW (through research and practice) that you are getting enough nutrition and bulk in your diet.....and enough taste and enjoyment....but you are STILL 'empty'...then it is not a food issue.

-On the practical side: If you are early in your transition...your stomach 'pouch' might still be quite large...and send out feelings of discomfort when not OVER-filled. Try several light juice fasts of 1-3 days over a period of 6 months to shrink this pouch....and you might be more comfrotable in the long run.

-Just an opinion / suggestion.

-David Z. Mason

[Lunar*Fey]

Thanks everyone.

I definately see something in what Sunshine said about missing something. It could be protein. I generally get like 6-13% protein per day. It's strange though, a mother's milk only has 6% protein. Not that I am purposefully basing it on that, more of a coincidence. Any way, its hard because my mom hates buying me food because it isn't "normal" food or whatever, she gets mad. So I just get the cheapest things and stuff. I definately want sprouts for some reason, even though I used to hate them and don't feel that beans are the best for human consumption. I have been trying to get some to sprout. I love seaweeds, but don't have any :( The problem is, even with this hunger, I get about 2000 to 2300 calories a day AND my weight fluctuated a bit downward. Which means not being allowed to exercise. Often times I have to eat until beyond discomfort just so that I wont get in trouble for having lost weight or anything. I get like zero exercise lately. Even though I yearn to move my body, it craves to move. I just don't, I can't. :(. and I was supposed to do indoor track but then my weight fluctuated a couple pounds downward the day of my doc appointment :(. I have another appointment tomorrow. My body has never looked and felt so disgusting in my life. and yet I continue to neglect it out of fear or something else. I don't know :( It makes me cry sometimes.

[Sheryl]

Something interesting I heard David Wolfe speak about. He talked about one woman having trouble gaining weight. When all she did differently was BLEND her food suddenly she started gaining. Presumably making the food more available had improved her absorption. You might want to consider that.

Thinking of you!
Sheryl

[Lunar*Fey]

Thanks Sheryl, I do make green smoothies...one or two a day generally.

[veganman]

Lunar*Fey - I am sending positive thoughts and support your way. Your body is healing and will go through ebbs and flows during the process. Hang in there....you are doing great! ;)

[Lunar*Fey]

thanks Veganman :) it's helpfulto hear that. I just hope I can get past all this. I am nervous for tomorrow's doctor appointment. Last time I left there angry as ever and overflowing with tears...

[Sunshine9]

Hey Lunar*Fey,

another thought just crossed my mind, two actually. one is perhaps try drinking more water. you'll never be satisfied with food when you're actually thirsty. the other, is that it is possible that it is something beyond food, water, minerals, you're craving... it could be emotional. is there something that perhaps your body is crying out for? more love, more rest, more kind words..? You have shared going through difficult things, my heart goes out to you. Anyway, just a thought. If you ever want to talk e-mail me. We're not too far apart in age.

Love,
Sunshine