brwnrawgirl
11-14-2006, 11:28 AM
My first introduction with Raw food began in September 2005. What an awakening! :p Although as the winter months ensued it became extremely difficult to maintain. 2006 brought forth some new raw promises but while dealing with the declining health of my beloved aunt whom I cared for, raw eating just went out the window.
Ever since I have been craving this lifestyle yet again. For a while I refused to go online because I didn't want to be reminded of what I wasn't doing. I have such an absolute way of thinking that because I was no longer 100% raw I felt it wasn't worthwhile to try at all. I kept trying to convince myself that the raw lifestyle isn't healthy or practical. Though with every new evolving health article or diet I read about, more and more fresh fruits and vegetables were the recommended approaches.
I've gained a lot of weight up to this point and I feel miserable. I drink a lot more wine now, than I ever have previously. It's as if my conscious is running from reality and wine helps me numb my feelings & real thoughts about myself.
I want to be raw again and I've decided today that I am going to try again. Not sure if I picked a good month with Thanksgiving an all but I am going to start at this moment taking it one day at a time.
I need the support of my fellow raw fooders and I hope to lend myself to others as well throughout this journey. Its difficult when no one around you is raw but you. Most of my friends think my eating habits are a bit extreme anyway. I don't plan on telling anyone this time either
Never did I feel such freedom, clarity and optimal health than I while I was raw. I want that again.
Feeling frightened of what's to come but hopeful that it will be worth it. :o
Ever since I have been craving this lifestyle yet again. For a while I refused to go online because I didn't want to be reminded of what I wasn't doing. I have such an absolute way of thinking that because I was no longer 100% raw I felt it wasn't worthwhile to try at all. I kept trying to convince myself that the raw lifestyle isn't healthy or practical. Though with every new evolving health article or diet I read about, more and more fresh fruits and vegetables were the recommended approaches.
I've gained a lot of weight up to this point and I feel miserable. I drink a lot more wine now, than I ever have previously. It's as if my conscious is running from reality and wine helps me numb my feelings & real thoughts about myself.
I want to be raw again and I've decided today that I am going to try again. Not sure if I picked a good month with Thanksgiving an all but I am going to start at this moment taking it one day at a time.
I need the support of my fellow raw fooders and I hope to lend myself to others as well throughout this journey. Its difficult when no one around you is raw but you. Most of my friends think my eating habits are a bit extreme anyway. I don't plan on telling anyone this time either
Never did I feel such freedom, clarity and optimal health than I while I was raw. I want that again.
Feeling frightened of what's to come but hopeful that it will be worth it. :o