rawnpawgirl
10-31-2006, 08:05 AM
Hey everyone,
I have been a part of this forum since about February of last year. I discovered it while I was fervently researching raw foods during a long cleanse/fast I did prior to beginning the raw foods lifestyle. Since that time, I have been 90-100% raw. A beautiful journey it has been and continues to be, challenges and all. Wouldn't trade it for anything.
While I do have 100+ posts, I have mostly just been a "lurker", as many like to call it. I have gotten a lot of support on my journey from everyone else's posts, whether they were answers to mine or not. For this, THANK YOU. However, most of my posts were just questions/concerns, a few were just simple answers/comments on other's posts. Nothing too deep. Those are the tell-tale words-- Nothing too deep. Most were asking/receiving type posts and very few were giving/supporting type posts. In other words, I have up to this point been very hesitant to give and share of myself on this board and quite frankly, in life. I keep myself at a distance. In my marriage, relationships, etc. In fact, in all honesty, it has been a huge detriment in my marriage of 12 years, especially in the past few years.
As you all know, especially if you have been raw for awhile, that eating living pure raw foods does not only purify the body but the heart and soul as well. In this, many things have come up for me emotionally that I know I need to look at head-on and deal with. Not an easy task. It is so easy to shove all those uncomfortable feelings under the carpet when faced with parts of ourselves/our egos that have been creating obstacles to claiming our highest and greatest most powerful divine selves.
Recenty, I have been hit HARD with the truth in the ways I self-sabotage and limit myself. One of those ways is always remaining in the background on this forum, in life, and believing lies like, "I won't have anything to offer anyway..." Blah, blah, blah... Self limiting, self-defeating thoughts. I have done it with career (or lack of one!)- I recently busted my butt and worked very hard to become a Certified Life Coach but have not pursued it because of FEAR. I intuitively KNOW I have so much to give, yet have stayed stagnant. I have let my thoughts of LACK keep me from pursuing my dreams and greatness, allowed these thoughts to sabotage my raw eating many many times. When the emotions get too intense, I would just eat some cooked comfort food and then feel guilty, bad about myself.
Well, I know that is a huge lie that I refuse to believe a moment longer. I knew that one step I needed to take was to be vulnerable to all of you. I have known this for weeks but it has taken me this long to write! (thanks RP for you NOW post) I want to be able to think of the people on this forum as my "raw family" as many of you have put it. I don't feel like that because I don't GIVE here. Enough is enough. I know I have so much to offer and you will be seeing a lot more of me. No more hiding on this forum-- or in life.
Being raw means being RAW, with food-- and with self.
Have a rawsome day!
I have been a part of this forum since about February of last year. I discovered it while I was fervently researching raw foods during a long cleanse/fast I did prior to beginning the raw foods lifestyle. Since that time, I have been 90-100% raw. A beautiful journey it has been and continues to be, challenges and all. Wouldn't trade it for anything.
While I do have 100+ posts, I have mostly just been a "lurker", as many like to call it. I have gotten a lot of support on my journey from everyone else's posts, whether they were answers to mine or not. For this, THANK YOU. However, most of my posts were just questions/concerns, a few were just simple answers/comments on other's posts. Nothing too deep. Those are the tell-tale words-- Nothing too deep. Most were asking/receiving type posts and very few were giving/supporting type posts. In other words, I have up to this point been very hesitant to give and share of myself on this board and quite frankly, in life. I keep myself at a distance. In my marriage, relationships, etc. In fact, in all honesty, it has been a huge detriment in my marriage of 12 years, especially in the past few years.
As you all know, especially if you have been raw for awhile, that eating living pure raw foods does not only purify the body but the heart and soul as well. In this, many things have come up for me emotionally that I know I need to look at head-on and deal with. Not an easy task. It is so easy to shove all those uncomfortable feelings under the carpet when faced with parts of ourselves/our egos that have been creating obstacles to claiming our highest and greatest most powerful divine selves.
Recenty, I have been hit HARD with the truth in the ways I self-sabotage and limit myself. One of those ways is always remaining in the background on this forum, in life, and believing lies like, "I won't have anything to offer anyway..." Blah, blah, blah... Self limiting, self-defeating thoughts. I have done it with career (or lack of one!)- I recently busted my butt and worked very hard to become a Certified Life Coach but have not pursued it because of FEAR. I intuitively KNOW I have so much to give, yet have stayed stagnant. I have let my thoughts of LACK keep me from pursuing my dreams and greatness, allowed these thoughts to sabotage my raw eating many many times. When the emotions get too intense, I would just eat some cooked comfort food and then feel guilty, bad about myself.
Well, I know that is a huge lie that I refuse to believe a moment longer. I knew that one step I needed to take was to be vulnerable to all of you. I have known this for weeks but it has taken me this long to write! (thanks RP for you NOW post) I want to be able to think of the people on this forum as my "raw family" as many of you have put it. I don't feel like that because I don't GIVE here. Enough is enough. I know I have so much to offer and you will be seeing a lot more of me. No more hiding on this forum-- or in life.
Being raw means being RAW, with food-- and with self.
Have a rawsome day!