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[berrymarymac]

So I've been gone for a while, got off the diet and am now in a major depression. I don't want to be overweight anymore. I don't want to be considered morbidly obese. I don't want to die early or have a heart attack one day. I don't want to have asthma. I want guys to notice me. I want to be like a normal, healthy person!

I'm crying right now, it's just so hard when you weigh this much. I don't look like it at all, but still...I do weigh this much!! It makes me want to hurt myself, but that will get me no where. I had to vent all of this...and I am going back on the raw diet. I'm throwing away all of my junk food in my room, starting with my doughnuts, then continue. Doing that right now!

[sungoddess]

We are here for you! I am in college too, I understand how difficult it is on TOP of everything else to be raw. College is NOT conducive to a healthy, organic existence! You will reach your goal! I am struggling to keep control of my binge tendencies right now (sitting in my dorm) ;) Know that you are not alone, and that everyone on this Forum will help you through. Good luck starting raw again tomorrow!

Chevy

[berrymarymac]

I just gave all my junk food away to friends and am soaking almonds and dates right now!! So people gave me very strange looks as I rushed around my room and hall in a psychotic frenzy!

Thanks for being there for me guys!

[carolg]

Welcome back. We are here to support you. We all may not have weight issues, but surely we are not exempt from other "issues/problems" in our lives. Age is not a factor here either. You have come to the right place. Good for you to toss out the donuts. Maybe grab a fruit or a drink of water or make some juice. I'm sure you know this, but know we care and here for you!

Have you seen RP's before/after pictures? I think link is called before/after pic. Take a peek. Great inspiration to let you know you can be another RP in your own way and successful too. I'm sure you have much beauty to be found as a human being and your weight issues are just one part of you.

Regardless, don't beat yourself up, as you are now ready for a new beginning. People do fall, but staying stuck in the mud or the ground is sometimes where people just stay and never want to strive forward.

If you can change one minute at a time, 30 minutes at a time, a hour at a time, a half day at a time, a meal at a time, that is great beginnings. Not everyone can kick their bad habits or let's say "different" habits. You are set apart but having a ground of non-judgmental cheerleaders on your side.

We care. So start where you are at. If you fall, as I remember RP writing a short while back, then you fall, but she's back strong as you will see in her posts.

I'm cheering you on personally. You can email me if you need someone behind the scenes. I want to encourage you here--you can do it at your pace!!

Take care.

Give yourself a hug by just coming out and asking for support. I love to write and more of an emotional writer. Just this week reflected on people crying, but mainly girls, and it's okay to express your emotions through tears, writing, etc. I'm here if you need me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Remember you are not alone here, but among a family who cares. Regardless of the amount of weight, it does melt off automatically and great you are not going for the surgery route, not to judge others, but I believe this would be my healthier choice too. Nuts are super fattening. May want to limit those. Gourmet meals have a tendency to be like that. I love salads but you will get lots of ideas from others here. No I don't live off of salads, but still enjoy foods.

Hugs,
carolg

[fruit]

Hello mrandal,Im so glad to see you back!
And do know that no matter what you weigh you are still beautiful(inside and out) and you do not need to be thin for boys to notice you,If they dont notice your beauty the way you are then there not worth your time anyways.

I know you can do it,Just keep at it.We all fall of track and have to pick back up.And you have made it so far.Take care :)

[berrymarymac]

I lost 20 pounds over the summer and have gained 10 of those back. I was heavy raw this summer, and two weeks into school. then it died. So I don't know.

But thanks for the support!!

Oh I met this girl here who was also on the raw diet, maybe I we can do a challenge together or have a support system! She said it was the best diet she had been on!

[luckitri]

Welcome Back!

[raw-siobhan]

Please take it one day at a time. Your new goals are great. You're back and that is so terrific, but YOU ARE HUMAN and you deserve love and you deserve to love yourself. You know how the people are on this website...it doesnt matter what happens you are always loved here and I certainly am here for you in whatever capacity I can offer. You are in my thoughts. By the way, as far as men go...while I know a great many wonderful men...they are highly overrated!!! I am learning to love myself for who I see in the mirror and I am overweight as well. It isnt easy when you dont fit the physical body standards that the world says is attractive, but what is on the inside is what counts. Right? I know that sounds so darn cliched, but it really is true. I am here for you. I support you. You are on the right track - you are headed in the right direction and THAT is good. :) xoxo

[juliebove]

Welcome back! Don't despair. I am not 100% raw yet and I am losing weight. What is really helping me is raw coconut oil. Yes, it's expensive but to me it's worth it. Even if I eat some of it smeared on a cracker or a piece of non-raw bread, it is working for me. I find I need to eat some every day. 1-2 T.

[spicyfull]

The Darkest Hour is just before Dawn........Hang in there...........

[honeybee joy]

Glad to see you back! You have my support!

[Ariannah]

Hi Mrandal! Welcome back. I hope I don't risk hijacking this thread to say I am in the same boat... but I am newly back as well.

Most of my "off raw" food was not even junk food, and that was what kept me justifying my slippery slope. "Well, it's not junk, it's healthy cooked food".... What a deceptive attempt at justification!

Buh, well no more! One of my reasons for going off was peer pressure (see my other thread) but frankly, I don't face "peer pressure" in the privacy of my own home, it's my own choices that led me off!

I've gained most of the weight I was so proud of losing last year! The day before my wedding in January 2006, I was wearing size 14 jeans!!

Well, mrandal, you have my 100% back up. I'm going to grocery shop today and get all my favorite raw things once again. I'm going to keep a private journal as well, as that helps me get on the "straight and narrow" so to speak.

[berrymarymac]

Hi Mrandal! Welcome back. I hope I don't risk hijacking this thread to say I am in the same boat... but I am newly back as well.

Most of my "off raw" food was not even junk food, and that was what kept me justifying my slippery slope. "Well, it's not junk, it's healthy cooked food".... What a deceptive attempt at justification!

Buh, well no more! One of my reasons for going off was peer pressure (see my other thread) but frankly, I don't face "peer pressure" in the privacy of my own home, it's my own choices that led me off!

I've gained most of the weight I was so proud of losing last year! The day before my wedding in January 2006, I was wearing size 14 jeans!!

Well, mrandal, you have my 100% back up. I'm going to grocery shop today and get all my favorite raw things once again. I'm going to keep a private journal as well, as that helps me get on the "straight and narrow" so to speak.

I'm glad you are back as well!! I was going to eat raw 100% today but got carried away and had a cheese enchilada and green beans at dining hall. It was nasty anyways, oh and I had a cookie -_-"

I feel much better today. I'm going through a hormonal imbalance right now! I have dates and almond soaking for almond milk! Yummy! So tonight I'm going to make RP's brownies, almond milk, raw oatmeal (apple, banana, almond butter) and maybe something else! I dunno, but I'm happen! ooo, and some smoothies for the weekend! I'm going to the store after work today!