Frustrated.. feel like giving up

[Jewell]

I'm so frustrated right now. I love being raw - I love how I feel, I love how I look, I love my life way more when I'm raw. But why do I keep sabotaging myself? How can I keep from cheating?
I lost 9lbs last week on raw... I felt amazing. Then I end up binging like I did tonight. I feel so sick I feel like crying. Sticking my fingers down my throat has crossed my mind let me tell you!
I attended a raw retreat last month and loved every minute of it. I learned so much. I was even able to purchase Alissas book from Victoria Boutenko.. and read cover to cover. Its so far my favorite raw book!
ok.. so here I am. I have my vitamix, my dehydrator, I just purchased nut milk bags, I have everything I need... and I do good for a period of time then all of a sudden I cave in. I get in this mind set that I don't care right now - I'm just going to eat. As soon as I'm finished the last bite I feel GUILT!
Then it takes me a week or two to get back on raw again.
I'm going on holidays in Dec then my husband and I are going to Mexico in Feb and I have this goal to lose some weight before my holidays - especially cause I'm in a bathing suit. Does this stop me from binging?
Don't get me wrong, I'm not striving to go raw for just weight loss, thats just a benefit that is big for me. I've had serious digestive problems for years, and bad Candida.. and raw is the only thing that helps!
I feel almost that I need some help.. I should see a shrink! Something in me just doesn't want to succeed! WHY? Can anyone help?

[Sharon in Colorado]

Trust me, what you are going through is very normal. You are moving in the right direction. I can't count how many times I've indulged in exactly what I didn't want to.

After a while, you learn to just keep moving forward, and not being hard on yourself.

It is much worse to beat yourself up, then to be eating cooked food, it really is.

Just be at peace with what you did. You will probably do it again BUT IT'S OKAY! Just keep plugging ahead, learn from your mistakes and MOVE ON!

It is truly not the end of the world. It is a new beginning, for you! :)

P.S. Click on my latest blog entry about fear. Someone said that what they read was pretty much what their therapist told them. And this is free, unless of course you would like buy one of my ebooks, he he. :p

[Rawkinlocs]

Honey, over 3/4 of us could have written the same experiences...we've been there and some of us are going through it right now. But a friend of mine and I were talking about this and I want you to keep something in mind -

MANY of the "raw gurus"...those who have now been raw for 10+ years will tell you that THEY, too, went through the same things.

What you have to change is your mindset...don't feel guilty, just keep on, one day at a time and each day, strive for your goal and if you don't reach it, try the next day and the next. Even if/when you go for those long stretches with raw and then end up having something contrary, don't give up!

Look at how much BETTER you are eating now than you did a year or five years ago. Even if you cave in to eating some unhealthy things (or even cooked healthy things) unless you are committing your entire diet to those things, you are probably still eating way better than you did before you learned of eating raw.

So, just keep on keeping on...when those moments come where you give in to the temptations, cravings, etc...raw is STILL with you...it always will be because even if you spent a whole entire year eating the way you used to post-raw, you are going to end up coming back to raw...it's almost inevitable because you know in your heart that is the best way to eat and you know how good it makes you feel. But years and years of eating a certain way and learning that certain foods were okay, it takes time for many of us for that to be undone.

[Revvell]

You might want to check this out:

http://www.rawfoodtalk.com/forum/showthread.php?t=20276

and this:

http://www.rawfoodtalk.com/forum/showthread.php?t=19791

Revvell