My first emotional detox. Anyone's similar?

[eatyourbroccoli]

Last night I went through my first period of emotional detox. I've been 50%+ raw for 1 year (usually high raw, periods of 100%), vegan for a little over a month, and 100% raw for a week. And last night, a years worth of healthier eating, combined with that month of veganism and week of raw veganism, finally let loose my first emotional detox.

It took a somewhat small thing to upset me, and I went into my room and hid under my blankets like a child so my boyfriend couldn't "find me." Of course he came in and tried to comfort me, but I went for 1.5 hours and through 1.5 rolls of toilet paper just crying and crying. It's not even though I was truly "sad," but in my head LITERALLY (which was really cool, actually) all I could see was my life - all of the more painful parts - playing backwards. I would stop after about 20-30 mins, sitting there staring, and then these visual memories would rush over me again and I'd start up again. It was such a huge release..especially since I have never ever been one to allow myself to cry. I've always been the one to keep a stiff upper lip.

But now, I've realized emotions are OKAY and I truly need to allow myself to feel. I've also realize I don't need to attempt to "be" anyone so far as emotional strength anymore, and that I need to allow myself to be who I am as opposed to putting on this facade of independence and unconquerable toughness.

I've never cried so hard/long in my life..a few times I even thought I was going to pass out http://rawfoodtalk.com/forum/images/smilies/eek.gif. I was so out of it, too, the entire time..in my own world of incredibly intense emotional detox :D .

Thanks for letting me share. :)

[misslinda]

WOW! I wish I could have been a fly on the wall for your life chaning moment!!!

I am so happy and excited for you that you have shattered that 'iron steel wall' How did you feel this morning? DO you almost feel like a stranger into the world..........seeing and feeling it after this event?


:)

[dreamrawalwz]

I'm also wondering...how do you feel today? Rejuvenated or inspired or anything? I've read that others have deep emotional detox and feel completely new...like they've never felt before. I am like you were. I havn't let myself cry. I always thought it meant I was "weak" because of other issues. I don't think it's "weak" anymore and that it's healthy, yet I still can't conjure up a tear. One day hopefully!

[eatyourbroccoli]

i needed a lot of extra sleep last night. ive been averaging 6-7 hours, waking up ready to go. last night i needed ELEVEN hours. i tried to wake myself up after 7, but decided to allow myself the rest it was craving. i also had a new, "cleansing" experience in the bathroom this morning :p , AND took a 25 minute shower - neither of which is like me. now that i slept that extra time and did both of this things, i feel really really well. a lot better than usual.

i also noticed this morning upon standing up, i have yet to black out. for the past 2-3 weeks, everytime i stood up i would black out and have to stop moving until i regained vision. so far this morning, NOTHING. ive been totally ok :)

:)

[sunflowery]

Hi Eatyourbroccoli,
I passed for a similar detox a month ago. I was on a meditation retreat so I think it help me a lot. It was really shocking for me, but after a while I feel really peaceful and happy. It was in my 2nd month 100% raw. Now I feel better than ever before, only need 3 or 4 hours of sleep and I full on energy :D
I hope you feel better now ;)

[JennaBoBenna]

Wow! That's so amazing!

[misslinda]

I know, this is AMAZING to hear and witness!!!!!!!!!!!

Eatyourbroccoli, mine was similar back when I did my extensive fasting. I literally could not talk to anything or anyone. I cried almost 24/7 for days and never left my room unless to use the bathroom and get juicing stuff which was few. I recall by day 12-14, like a switch went off in my head. A kind of brightness that I never new existed...........I felt like I could smell,taste,hear and touch for the first time. More importantly, I could [feel] who I was deep down inside.

So great to hear your healing is progressing.......

Been a long year for you.

:)

[eatyourbroccoli]

thanks for all the support and responses guys. i really appreciate it. and im finally glad im starting to heal..it HAS been a long year misslinda, youre very right. couldnt have done it without this community.

:)

[Crazy Healer Lady]

Hello :)

My emotional detoxes have gone rather similar... I've always had troubles since I was a child letting my emotions go. Things were a little traumatic growing up, and I was told to stop crying, and so never let myself cry. It was only once finding Reiki that I have learned to heal, a looong and never-ending road. Those times of detox have either left me so exhausted the next day I needed - like you - many hours of sleep, or totally charged

[eatyourbroccoli]

i just wanted to add that the pores on my forehead, the part of my face i never have trouble with, are HUGE today. i swear you can see them in the mirror from 3 feet away.

id like to think my episode last night was a chakra-cleansing experience and today my body is reacting in a way to nuture the healing of my third eye :p

hey..we create our own realities, right? so why not? :D

:)

[sunflowery]

i just wanted to add that the pores on my forehead, the part of my face i never have trouble with, are HUGE today. i swear you can see them in the mirror from 3 feet away.

id like to think my episode last night was a chakra-cleansing experience and today my body is reacting in a way to nuture the healing of my third eye :p

hey..we create our own realities, right? so why not? :D

:)
so sweet... you make me smile :)

[Graciebeliever]

I had a major Emotional detox not long ago and boy do I know how you felt.

I didn't allow myself to return to SAD, as a matter of fact it continued to firm my resolve to keep going and really make some changes!

When these times come you just have to be VERY VERY good to yourself :)

Hang in there :)