::cries:: so bored!

[dreamrawalwz]

I know I know, I shouldn't complain. I'm just so bored and frustrated with my "choice" of foods. I still am reacting to some things, but I don't want to remove them because my diet is already SO limited. Here are the foods I can consume:

apples
grapes
pears
peach
nectarine
honeydew
cantaloupe
watermelon
orange
tomato
carrot
celery
bell pepper
romaine lettuice
lemon juice

That's it. The nectarines, peaches, and melons aren't always available so in the winter those are out. I can only consume these foods because:

1) they're the only organic produce and i must consume organic
2) food sensitivities and allergies.

In the winter melons, peaches, and nectarines are out
I think I react to tomatoes, oranges, and grapes so cut those out
I don't digest lettuce, celery, or bell peppers well anymore at all so cut those out
I'm not fond of apples anymore so those are out
The pears I get here taste winey to me so those are out

So if i took all that out what's left? Water and lemon juice!? So that's not possible. I have to have what's on this list...even if i'm reacting and not digesting well :(

I don't do recipies so I just have the same thing EVERY day! I'm stuck in a rut. Usually I have a few types of fruit a day and a big bowl of tomatoes, carrots, celery, and red bell pepper.

I want to cry and get my body back to normal, whatever that is. Now that I think about it...it's never been normal haha, but...just not like this.

le sigh. Thanks for letting me vent...
(p.s. to newbies, this has NOTHING to do with the raw diet, it's just something to do with my body personally)

My mom just said "i think you NEED to do a fast and then slowly add more things after that." Well duh! I just am not in the right environment at the house. Too many emotional things attatched here and I don't have the right support. I can't wait until winter break though to go to Tanglewood (my Aunt is coming with me!!!). Hmm...I hope I can work through this and figure it out.

[sport]

I know that it is hard but if you can not change your food or add anything to your choices perhaps you could change the way you look at food.
Life is all about expectations. If you go outside and find that the temperature is 60 degrees will you be plesantly surprised or dissapointed. It will depend on your expectations. The temp will be the same but you will view it differently.
There are lots of people in the world that view food as fuel for their body and do not have the taste and pleasure expectations that we in the western world have come to expect.
Think of food in a different way and fill your life with other pleasures instead.

[alex]

I very much doubt that any other creature on this planet worries about the taste of the food that they consume - they eat in order to nourish themselves.

I put all food into two groups: positive effect foods and negative effect foods (there are few if any that are neutral).

When I first started I put signs up everywhere: Is this a positive or negative effect food - especially on the fridge!

This made me think about what I was eating and gave me a better choice.

Since I am alone I am not able to buy a lot of different food at the same time or it goes bad before I eat it so for a week I'll eat kale every day - not really what I want to do. But I know that kale is a very good positive effect food and this helps a great deal.

Hope this can help you too


alex

[DavidZaneMason]

I hear / feel what you are saying.

-There are 1000's of varieties of fruits and vegetables. Not always organic.....but I've been all raw for many years.....and only rarely had organic (it's very expensive!) ha! ha!.

-You'll do the experimentation...take responsibility....find what works for you...and be successful.

-David Mason

[Lay-Lay]

Are there any seeds that you can eat? What about dehyrdrating apples, pears, and grapes. A nice trail mix would be a great change if you can do that.

[dreamrawalwz]

Are there any seeds that you can eat? What about dehyrdrating apples, pears, and grapes. A nice trail mix would be a great change if you can do that.

I can't have any nuts or seeds. I'm making myself have some avocado b/c i know i need fat, all people do, even if it makes me swell up. I don't like dehydrated foods anymore. The foods are no longer in their natural state and i feel really heavy and dehydrated if i consume dehydrated things. Thanks for the suggestion though.

I guess I shouldn't take things for granted. I guess I went from a wide selection of produce to a small one so I'll just have to get used to it. I HAVE to do organic. It's not a "rule" set by me or a high standard or anything....now if I have even a tomato that isn't organic I get an instant migrane. Even if i wash it.

[shelah]

dreamrawalwz,
your can-eat list is so short! i wonder if you have ever heard of or tried an "allergy" elimination technique called NAET. the N stands for Nambudripad, after the dr. who developed it. it just seems that there are many nutrients that you may be lacking, as you have already notied, i.e. good fats. but you should not have to suffer from bloating when trying to get a balanced diet!
many blessings,
shelah

[madmel]

dreamrawalwz,

wow, your list is really short! I am not sure whether you can get all the needed nutrition from these few items really.

Why can you not have nuts and seeds? Sorry, if you wrote it before and I was just to dumb to see it.

Why not have any dehydrated fruit? Why not go and try a small piece, one at a time, step by step.

I do see that you have a reaction to non-organic food - I wonder whether it's a genuine reaction or your mind is playing tricks on you. I just thought "What if she had a non-organic tomato and didn't know?"

I know that you are someone who is thinking and worrying a lot. You have a good heart and you have a lot on your mind, many of your posts show that. Maybe you are worrying too much, thinking too much? And now with this short list of things you CAN eat I wonder whether this is good.

Don't get me wrong, I do take everything you write very serious, but maybe maybe maybe you should take things just a little bit easier. Live your life, you have had enough experiences in the past and an ED, don't get too obsessed over raw food. Any obsession is bad, whether it's about healthy or unhealthy things. That's what I think.

It's difficult for me to really express my thoughts as English is not my mother tongue, but I hope you get the overall meaning.

mel

[dreamrawalwz]

dreamrawalwz,
your can-eat list is so short! i wonder if you have ever heard of or tried an "allergy" elimination technique called NAET. the N stands for Nambudripad, after the dr. who developed it. it just seems that there are many nutrients that you may be lacking, as you have already notied, i.e. good fats. but you should not have to suffer from bloating when trying to get a balanced diet!
many blessings,
shelah

No i havn't. I shall look into that, thanks.

[dreamrawalwz]

dreamrawalwz,

wow, your list is really short! I am not sure whether you can get all the needed nutrition from these few items really.

Why can you not have nuts and seeds? Sorry, if you wrote it before and I was just to dumb to see it.

Why not have any dehydrated fruit? Why not go and try a small piece, one at a time, step by step.

I do see that you have a reaction to non-organic food - I wonder whether it's a genuine reaction or your mind is playing tricks on you. I just thought "What if she had a non-organic tomato and didn't know?"

I know that you are someone who is thinking and worrying a lot. You have a good heart and you have a lot on your mind, many of your posts show that. Maybe you are worrying too much, thinking too much? And now with this short list of things you CAN eat I wonder whether this is good.

Don't get me wrong, I do take everything you write very serious, but maybe maybe maybe you should take things just a little bit easier. Live your life, you have had enough experiences in the past and an ED, don't get too obsessed over raw food. Any obsession is bad, whether it's about healthy or unhealthy things. That's what I think.

It's difficult for me to really express my thoughts as English is not my mother tongue, but I hope you get the overall meaning.

mel

Nuts and seeds cause serious reactions including anaphalaxis. I'd rather not play around with those.

Dehydrated foods just don't feel right to me. I'm further along the journey and my body just doesn't like dehydrated foods. They're not watery enough for me.

I really hope I read this incorrectly. It just kind of seems waht the doctors have told me, but I'm sure you didn't mean it. Just brough up memories/feelings. They used to tell me "it's not possible." or "i don't believe you." or "bring in a picture when you're swollen and then we'll talk." I would not subject myself to eating corn and wheat again to PROVE to them what I already knew.

It's not my mind and I KNOW that. I'm not freaking myself out and it's not my obsession. If I could make my body stop doing this I would in a heart beat. I believe being a fruitarian is what our human bodies should be so I'm working into that, but I'd just like A LOT more choices and selections that don't react.

Sorry, I can't explain waht I mean too. I'm sure me having other mental/emotional things going on that that stresses my body and in turn my body freaks out. I'm slowly working on those things, so maybe my body will follow.

[madmel]

Dream,

it's not that I don't believe you, really! I believe everything you write and know that is your belief.

I was thinking what is going in my mind sometimes (ED, depression, obsessions) and this is why I needed to ask you that. I used to think I can't have this or that and then suddenly something inside me changed. Body? Mind? Transformation?

You have come far on your raw journey and I am sure you know yourself well enough to listen to your body and do the right thing.

Mel

[greeninloanageles1]

If you can not tolerate most of the foods, then maybe your body is trying to tell you that it is time to fast?

[eatyourbroccoli]

hey dreamraw..

i think i remember reading something in another thread where you mentioned an ED?

i just wanted to offer some "ive been there" support, and suggest that maybe youre currently having difficulty digesting specific foods because of this. i dealt with anorexia and exercise bulemia for 2.5 years, and it messed up my digestion SO much. it has had residual affects, such as being unable to digest meat/dairy/grains even though im now "recovered" (though does one ever really recover from an ED?). yet, im now able to digest nuts again - something i was unable to digest before.

your body will heal. it WILL heal. just think positively and love it the best you can.

in the meantime..one thing ive found to work decently well for me is the incorporation of enzyme supplements. i dont know how you feel about supplements, but maybe? either that, or would it be possible to incorporate pineapple or papaya into your diet more, and eat that along with some fruits/veggies that are difficult to digest for you? their enzymes are great at breaking foods down..specifically proteins.

:)

[shelah]

dreamrawalwz,
here is a link for info about NAET:
http://www.naet.com/subscribers/index.html
many blessings,
shelah

[light food]

Dream,

((((((Hugs)))))))

Is this because of SBS? Does blending food help or is that what you already have to do?

Also:
http://web1.tch.harvard.edu/views/august03/step.html

[Angelic Light]

Hi Dream

I just want to send you a big hug... I am sorry you can't eat many foods. It must be really hard for you...

Have you tried hypnotherapy for your allergies - I have heard it can work...

I sympathise with your allergic reactions as I have had asthma and eczema all my life. Although the eczema is just about cleared now with eating a vegan diet. I hope you too can clear your allergies with your diet...

Is your stomach maybe producing too much acid? Have you tried eating only alkaline foods? It is just a feeling I am getting...

I also feel there may be something you can take to calm the acid, if it is that... maybe a herbalist could help you...

Take care...

Love Catherine
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[dreamrawalwz]

I don't have much time to get to individual responses, but I just want to say that the reactions I am getting (besides celery and lettuce) are not with digestion. With every one of my reactant foods I swell up wtih edema and then random foods cause other random reactions. It's not what I see in the mirror because my mom sees it as well and I know it's just water, not fat. Thank you though!

[Lay-Lay]

Hugs...enjoy what you can eat and love it. Feast in every bite!

On a comforting personal note, I used to have a very short list, but after a extrodinary detox (through raw) my food allergies eased. I remember it like yesterday.

Watermelon was the first usually reactive food I ate after my detox...I was amazed...I ate and had no reaction for the first time in years. Then the same with bananas and so forth.

I left raw for a while and I had been allergic to eggs really bad I was amazed when I had one that didn't cause me to swell, turn red, and pass out. (by the way my egg eating days are over)

I have just in the past 2 months overcame my chemical allergies. This makes me sooo happy. I don't pass out if someone sprays some bleach based product in my presents anymore, along with alot of other things that are gone. Yippee!

I believe with my whole heart that allergies can be reversed with a raw diet. I hope you experience a reverse soon. I think as far as how long it will be just depends on how long your body had issues with health (ED). I have been on this raw journey over 3 years and seeing myself grow and become healthier one day at a time. ***HUGS***