swingbolder
08-24-2006, 06:08 PM
I need some help, y'all. :(
I'm spending a few days at my parents' house, and I'm really tempted to eat cook food right now. Normally I will have a meal or two with them, then eat raw the rest of the time, but this visit I really can't afford the disruption in my health that eating even a little cooked food does to me. The fall semester starts on Monday (I am in nursing school), I have a REALLY HEAVY courseload and I need to be performing at my optimum capabilities from day one. When I eat cooked food my insomnia comes back and I have no energy. Then I spend the next two weeks detoxing. I can't afford to do that right now. I am feeling good at 100% and want to stay that way.
When I am not at my parents' house, I have no problem staying 100% raw for the most part (excepting the occasional herbal tea and nama shoyu). But when I'm here my resolve just melts. I wake up every morning to the smell of bacon and scrambled eggs and it continues all day from there.
So, please everyone send me good vibes. I need strength and I'm feeling very weak right now.
It also doesn't help that my sister and her family are here and she and her husband don't like me that much. They look down on me because I'm not rich yuppies like them (they always make comments to me and about me). So that is added stress that I could easily try to numb with some bbq, if you know what I mean. Also, it's a small house, the TV is always blasting which stresses me out as well, too noisy to meditate.
I love my parents and they're getting old, so I want to see them as much as I can but right now I'm feeling it's just too much.
I'm spending a few days at my parents' house, and I'm really tempted to eat cook food right now. Normally I will have a meal or two with them, then eat raw the rest of the time, but this visit I really can't afford the disruption in my health that eating even a little cooked food does to me. The fall semester starts on Monday (I am in nursing school), I have a REALLY HEAVY courseload and I need to be performing at my optimum capabilities from day one. When I eat cooked food my insomnia comes back and I have no energy. Then I spend the next two weeks detoxing. I can't afford to do that right now. I am feeling good at 100% and want to stay that way.
When I am not at my parents' house, I have no problem staying 100% raw for the most part (excepting the occasional herbal tea and nama shoyu). But when I'm here my resolve just melts. I wake up every morning to the smell of bacon and scrambled eggs and it continues all day from there.
So, please everyone send me good vibes. I need strength and I'm feeling very weak right now.
It also doesn't help that my sister and her family are here and she and her husband don't like me that much. They look down on me because I'm not rich yuppies like them (they always make comments to me and about me). So that is added stress that I could easily try to numb with some bbq, if you know what I mean. Also, it's a small house, the TV is always blasting which stresses me out as well, too noisy to meditate.
I love my parents and they're getting old, so I want to see them as much as I can but right now I'm feeling it's just too much.