Feeling very down

[Naiad]

Hi guys,

First off, I wanted to say how finding this website has been such a huge boon on the journey towards going and staying raw. Reading the stories, the recipies... everything has been a source of insight and inspiration.

One of the reasons I went raw in June was a major life event that was pretty stressful. I left a company I'd been with for five years. The work environment had become so toxic, I could no longer continue. It was my choice, but, I also feel anger in that I had to be around someone who led me to find leaving a place I otherwise liked to be the only solution.

I had health issues with my adrenals and had let stress and a horrible diet of nothing but pretty much coffee get me to a bad place emotionally and physically by the time I resigned. After reading and flirting with it for so long, I decided it was finally time to go raw. As many have noted, you can only walk the walk, until someone is ready... you can't really make them.

Since June I'd felt great - loads of energy,going to the gym, started to focus on getting my life back together. However, some recent events with an old boyfriend and PMS as I adjust to regulating my cycle naturally.... I woke up today with a panic attack I've not had in years. To make things worse (and probably related) I ate cooked food yesterday. I had sushi and cooked vegetables and noodles. I'm sure it's all related. All I can say is that I've cried non-stop today and I've never felt so hopeless or worthless. It's one of those moments where my whole life seems to be one bad decision and eating cooked food yesterday and slipping last weekend too, makes me feel like more of a failure.

I really feel like it's time for a master cleanse or water fast. I'd love if anyone could offer some advice or insight or just words of support to help me get started and go back to what was making me feel so great. I need someone to snap me out of this feeling of loathing and get back on track to manifesting my life where I want it to go.

[rawnyckat]

Hey there! I'm sorry to hear you're having such a bad day...You know what? I think PMS can really screw w/ your emotions! I went off the pill when I started raw and I have been fluctuating emotionally/physically like crazy! It's okay if you went off the wagon for one day!!! This is a lifestyle- so just get back on and don't beat yourslef up b/c of one day. IT's OKAY :o You are a strong, beautiful soul and we all have our "down" days. Tomorrow is another day!!! And know that we are all here for your support (at least I know that's what's been helping me through this journey! You've been an inspiration to me:))...How has the coconut oil thing been going? I just started adding it today...

I did a 2 week water fast (I can't believe I survived while teaching my classes) before I started raw to "jumpstart" the process....I will let you know that whatever weight you lose in the fast there is a likely probability that you will gain some (if not all) of it back! I gained every ounce back that I lost!...However, I DO think it is good to bring back that "discipline" AND everything tastes so much livelier afterwards....just make sure you break the fast correctly. I suggest reading Rational Fasting by Arnold Ehret.

[Bingka]

I read somewhere that as you lose weight the emotions you had at that time come back. IF you are losing weight maybe your body is venting the emotions as well. After reading alot of the posts on the forum it seems to me everyone goes thru this. You are not alone. Embrace this time and be glad you are moving past it. We all have moments of indecision and make mistakes, but I choose to learn from them and move forward.

I have done a 25 MC and it was amazing. Listen to your body... You can do anything you set your mind to. So be very careful what you decide to dwell on. You could set your mind to misery. Be happy you are going in the right direction....

Ken

[luckitri]

I have been enjoying your posts so I am sorry that you are having a bad day. I am newer at this than you are and haven't gotten to emotional detox yet so I really am at a loss for words. Just getting my body going is a major event so it will probably be awhile before I get there and then it will get confused with Menopause! I find that a good nights sleep is a wonderful thing and sometimes it is the only thing you can do that works. Baby yourself - you deserve it!

[Graciebeliever]

Hi guys,

First off, I wanted to say how finding this website has been such a huge boon on the journey towards going and staying raw. Reading the stories, the recipies... everything has been a source of insight and inspiration.

One of the reasons I went raw in June was a major life event that was pretty stressful. I left a company I'd been with for five years. The work environment had become so toxic, I could no longer continue. It was my choice, but, I also feel anger in that I had to be around someone who led me to find leaving a place I otherwise liked to be the only solution.

I had health issues with my adrenals and had let stress and a horrible diet of nothing but pretty much coffee get me to a bad place emotionally and physically by the time I resigned. After reading and flirting with it for so long, I decided it was finally time to go raw. As many have noted, you can only walk the walk, until someone is ready... you can't really make them.

Since June I'd felt great - loads of energy,going to the gym, started to focus on getting my life back together. However, some recent events with an old boyfriend and PMS as I adjust to regulating my cycle naturally.... I woke up today with a panic attack I've not had in years. To make things worse (and probably related) I ate cooked food yesterday. I had sushi and cooked vegetables and noodles. I'm sure it's all related. All I can say is that I've cried non-stop today and I've never felt so hopeless or worthless. It's one of those moments where my whole life seems to be one bad decision and eating cooked food yesterday and slipping last weekend too, makes me feel like more of a failure.

I really feel like it's time for a master cleanse or water fast. I'd love if anyone could offer some advice or insight or just words of support to help me get started and go back to what was making me feel so great. I need someone to snap me out of this feeling of loathing and get back on track to manifesting my life where I want it to go.


Looks like things stacked up on ya and hit you for a whammy :(

Right after begining to eat raw I hit a terrible emotional detox and I felt simply aweful! Felt worthless and many of the things that you described.

"This TOO shall pass"

Hang on and hold your breath and soon you will exhale and the sun will come out and shine on you and the stars will sparkle again.

You already have the knowledge about the eating and you know how it affects you.

You need to take EXTRA good special care of yourself...

Extra sleep, lovely fruit smooties, Cuddles with your favorite Teddy Bear, Slow walks listening to the birds or a nice drive looking at something easy and natural.

You are smart to change from a toxic environment but change is scarry and it takes some re-adjustments. Be loving and patient with yourself :)

If you slip and eat some cooked food? Don't punish yourself. See how it makes you feel and tell yourself that your next meal you will give yourself something wonderful and special to make you feel better and eat RAW because you love yourself enough to give it the BEST!!

Raw Priestess is a smart cookie.. She says "I will eat raw today and tomorrow I will eat anything I want, Then when tomorrow comes? say the same thing again!!" She's so smart :)

Just go day by day :) thats all we can do.. sometimes it is hour to hour or minute to minute.

YOU are doing great by coming back to what you know works and go easy and adjust yourself to 100% :)

Stay here and read and definitely enjoy the fact that others walk your journey and care about you!!

[Naiad]

Thank you so much for your posts, guys! It really means alot. I actually just got off my lazy behind and worked on my resume, hit the gym, went and bought some raw cacao... so, I'm working towards making things better instead of just crying and feeling sorry for myself.

It's just so awful to feel this unbearable weight of depression and feel like it's everything you can do to not slip under.

I think it helps I've only had water today... I think this is a sign to start the cleanse tonight and cleanse out everything old that seems to be resurfacing.

[kellibelli]

Today is only day number 2 for me and I have felt overwhelmed. I have read some of the advice given for Naiad's experience and I feel so similar. I feel so overwhelmed with my desires to eat healthy and be disciplined, but I turned on myself and ate at McDonalds this morning after dropping my youngest off at kindergarten. I am stressed with finances and health and my weight and I just dont seem to be able to figure out how to balance things. Please help me figure things out. I got really bummed out when I ended up spending so much money on fresh fruits and veggies and these are only going to last me a week at the very most...I dont know how to get the expenses of fresh foods down while still keeping my head above water financially as a singler mother...I dont want to give up...I am not looking for excuses to quit...please, please help me figure out how to work this out. :(

[Lay-Lay]

I'm so sorry you had such a rough day. Much raw love. I hope you are up and feeling good again soon!

[Green Life]

Panic attacks are LIES.


Don't listen.


Ignore the fear and it will disappear!


cheers!
Green :D Life