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[mud]

What to do? It's like, now that i'm eating raw ~ nothing really feels different. It's not like i expect change within a week, but i keep having these thoughts crossing my mind: nothing is changing, so what's the point of eating raw. do you even enjoy it? you're never going to lose weight, eating as much as you do. why do we have to eat? why am i constantly thinking about food, and calories?

i still feel "fat" and gross in some sort of way when i eat. It's still a struggle. i hate it! It's like i eat tons of raw food, and feel stuffed, and disgusting. i feel like i'm never going to get anywhere, and that the only way i can possibly feel comfortable with myself is to not eat at all.

When i ate more of an SAD diet, i would practically fast all day, and then gorge myself on something like pasta at night. i used to try and throw it up, but it never worked. So i would make a vow to fast the next day, and exercise it off. Usually jog or bike. i hated exercising, and still do. But it's complusive or something. Like it MUST be done, or else.

i'm really sorry for this long post on absolutely nothing. i just had to get it out somehow. Is there any reasurrance that i can still have the right body without restricting myself from food? It's like, "Food = fat. Eat = weight gain " . This is the only way i can think. i hate this.

[Pierre]

Don't try to lose weight. If you count your fat grams, carb grams, etc. and put upper limits, your body goes into starvation mode and holds on to fat. I weigh my salad and put a lower limit. (It must weigh at least 640 grams and contain at least 90 grams of olives, unless I'm out of something. I ran out of olives this week.)

I've never been on a diet, except for five months for Candida reasons. (The remaining Candida apparently hid in the joints and I'm now detoxing it.) I've been weighing myself for months, not trying to lose, just watching. I figured 84 was a good weight for the body I've been given, and if I had fat on my belly, it's unsaturated, I ate plenty of fiber and fruit, and I'm not likely to get any of those diseases.

Now that I'm raw I'm losing. But I'm still not trying to lose. If I stay at 75 the rest of my life, or go down to 54, I'll be content. I just eat plenty of food with enzymes still in it, and watch them work.

[MendhiGrl]

i still feel "fat" and gross in some sort of way when i eat. It's still a struggle. i hate it! It's like i eat tons of raw food, and feel stuffed, and disgusting. i feel like i'm never going to get anywhere, and that the only way i can possibly feel comfortable with myself is to not eat at all.

i'm really sorry for this long post on absolutely nothing. i just had to get it out somehow. Is there any reasurrance that i can still have the right body without restricting myself from food? It's like, "Food = fat. Eat = weight gain " . This is the only way i can think. i hate this.[/QUOTE]


Hang in there, Mud. You've spent a lot of time abusing your body and food by fasting, gorging, purging. Be gentle with yourself, be gentle with your body. Eat regular meals of delicious raw foods. Make recipes, try new fruits and vegetables, give your body, mind, and spirit a food break.

Eat to live - and while doing so, enjoy the flavors, colors, textures. I've been eating a lot of Gala apples. The skins are so pretty! I've also noticed that there is depth to the red on a lot of cherries.

In time, everything will even out. There is a regular mention here of a woman who was raw for 5 months before she started to lose weight. Be patient with the weight, you've lived at this weight for a long time as it is (right?) so live with it a bit longer. In the meantime, you're feeding your body lots of wonderful enzymes, nutrients, vitamins, etc. You're rebuilding your cells, your organs, your systems. Lots of wonderful things are occuring in your body! In time, it will be your body's time to release the weight.

Find a new hobby, something to distract you from your constant thoughts of calories, fat, weight.

One thing to consider: therapy. It's hard to overeat on raw, and if you're eating to "stuffed and disgusting" there are other problems here than just food. In therapy, you can look at why you need to stuff yourself, what holes you're trying to fill in your spirit, what needs you're using food to fill, etc.

Like I said, be gentle with yourself.

Good luck,
Mendhi