I suppose it's DETOX!!

[rawpriestess]

Well, I can ONLY HOPE, it's some weird alien detox.

But, I was doing a psychic show last night, and so alot of people have dinner and eat right there at the same table as I'm at, and we do readings, and it's all cool,

Anyway, Everyone around me had cheeseburgers, with dripping greese all over their fingers, and onion rings, and all that.

I can't believe it, but they looked good. I mean, I didn't eat anything, I fasted, and came home and ate some peaches, but they looked good, I also found myself wanting them tonight.

Now, I really need to look at this, because I haven't eaten meat in over 10 years, and this is so weird, however, I have had alot of emotional turmoil today, more than I care to even acknowledge, so, I think it is an emotional reaction to this turmoil, and, that is why I ate rawviolies at 4PM for dinner, and then just ate a bunch of pineapple for snack.

So, is this just detox? or is it emotional cravings?

I don't suppose it truly matters, as either way it is a craving, and I will not give in to it, but it is interesting to realize how MUCH I want that.

Actually, I am remembering making them at home, in my mom's house, when she was alive, and I was very young, maybe 6th grade? and things were so much easier, and calmer, and the only thing I worried about was what TV show we would watch that night, LOL

Life was so much simpler, so maybe that is what I am wanting right now.

My life is indeed complicated and quite hectic right now especially.

Plus alot of stress, and uncertainty, although being self-employed there is always that. LOL

But it does seem as though right now there is massive amounts of stress.

[Lay-Lay]

I would say alot of it is emotional detox. But stress may be playing a factor. I know it is for me right now as I am self employed also and I had a slow month last month. I will get a few checks in September. I sure wish it would hurry up and get here.

[JennaBoBenna]

I think food like that looks good because it's so much fun to eat! One of my favorite things to eat is this grilled veggies and hummus tortilla roll-up thing and it's so fun because I piled salsa fresca on it, and extra hummus and it would get all over my face and fingers...it was just so fun!

[Coriander74]

It sounds like stress and emotional stuff going down.

Good for you though for having your peaches in the end.

[Autumn]

<<Actually, I am remembering making them at home, in my mom's house, when she was alive, and I was very young, maybe 6th grade? and things were so much easier, and calmer, and the only thing I worried about was what TV show we would watch that night, LOL

Life was so much simpler, so maybe that is what I am wanting right now.>>

I think you hit the nail on the head there. I know you love your life and enjoy your work, but I guess we all wish, at least sometimes, to have no responsibilities or cares in the world. I remember a time when my biggest decision of the day was to wear my red and black poncho (which I thought made me look older), or my teal poncho (which I thought went better with my hair). Such the complexities of life for a 10 year old. :)

Either way, I know deep down you don't really want those greasy cow-carcasses! Did you feel left out that they were all enjoying them together? Maybe that was it.

[rawpriestess]

Oh, I didn't feel left out, although they were all sharing and chatting about all eating the same thing, which was unusual. LOL

But I think it was wanting a less hectic, simpler time.

Just to wake up, go to school, have fun at recess, and flirt with the boys, play with the other girls, walk home, play with my Barbie dolls and watch TV, life seemed so easy and pleasant.

I think that is why I always go for guys who are father figures, and very thin and tall, much like my beloved Grampa. LOL

he was 6'3" and very thin, I always go for guys like that.

but where does the long hair come into play?

he was bald, and I just hate that on men. (gosh, I'm so superficial) LOL

but I do know what turns me on.

now, don't get me wrong, I've gone out with plenty of balding, and totally bald, and short and heavy and down right obese men, I mean 500 pounds or so, so I have gone the entire way, but I always go crazy for the tall thin ones with long hair.

gosh, I'm a push over for that look.