rawpriestess
08-10-2006, 10:20 AM
I have chosen to meditate on the issues in my life, that I was choosing to feel pain over.
I realized that I was focusing on what I thought I lost, instead of what I had gained from this experience.
When someone that you love very much, dissapears out of your life, there is shock, anger, fear, concern, resentment, etc, all of this is fear based, and doesn't help the situation at all.
So, although I don't understand all of it (yet) and I'm not sure I ever will,
I have come to the realization, that I have many things to be thankful for because of having had my x-bf in my life.
Although I can't possibly list them all here, I can list the ones that jump out at me, and I will always remember with love. and joy.
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Some of the wonderful things that s-bf did for me, and my gratitudes towards him for our life together.
He first and formost loved me no matter what size I was, he saw me as his Goddess, not as fat, and I always felt beautiful in his arms.
He was capable of anything, he could build and create and make and do, he made beautiful raw recipes and he built many gardens, he could fix or repair of make anything, he was so capable of everything.
He was an excellent raw chef, and Reiki healer, and psychic, the list goes on and on.
He could make anything grow, he was an Earth Steward and had the greenest thumb I had ever seen, all plants and animals responded to him favorably.
He was always considerate and thoughtful and kind and supportive of my choices, even if they changed from one day to the next.
I always felt loved by him.
He showed me that I could be or do anything I chose.
He helped me realize my true potential.
He was the love of my life, and I will always be eternaly grateful for the time we spent together.
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I wish him love and joy and happiness always, in all of his choices, plans, wishes and dreams.
May all of the Universe open up and pour down abundant love, and blessings to you dear one, may all of your wishes come true, and may you find that which you seek on this plane of manifestation.
I loved you, I love you and I will love you, till the end of time, past my body life, past my mental life,past my soul life.
I can never repay you for the joy you brought to me, and the love that I now feel for myself because you reflected my own love back to me through your beautiful eyes.
I realized that I was focusing on what I thought I lost, instead of what I had gained from this experience.
When someone that you love very much, dissapears out of your life, there is shock, anger, fear, concern, resentment, etc, all of this is fear based, and doesn't help the situation at all.
So, although I don't understand all of it (yet) and I'm not sure I ever will,
I have come to the realization, that I have many things to be thankful for because of having had my x-bf in my life.
Although I can't possibly list them all here, I can list the ones that jump out at me, and I will always remember with love. and joy.
**********************************
Some of the wonderful things that s-bf did for me, and my gratitudes towards him for our life together.
He first and formost loved me no matter what size I was, he saw me as his Goddess, not as fat, and I always felt beautiful in his arms.
He was capable of anything, he could build and create and make and do, he made beautiful raw recipes and he built many gardens, he could fix or repair of make anything, he was so capable of everything.
He was an excellent raw chef, and Reiki healer, and psychic, the list goes on and on.
He could make anything grow, he was an Earth Steward and had the greenest thumb I had ever seen, all plants and animals responded to him favorably.
He was always considerate and thoughtful and kind and supportive of my choices, even if they changed from one day to the next.
I always felt loved by him.
He showed me that I could be or do anything I chose.
He helped me realize my true potential.
He was the love of my life, and I will always be eternaly grateful for the time we spent together.
************************************************** **********
I wish him love and joy and happiness always, in all of his choices, plans, wishes and dreams.
May all of the Universe open up and pour down abundant love, and blessings to you dear one, may all of your wishes come true, and may you find that which you seek on this plane of manifestation.
I loved you, I love you and I will love you, till the end of time, past my body life, past my mental life,past my soul life.
I can never repay you for the joy you brought to me, and the love that I now feel for myself because you reflected my own love back to me through your beautiful eyes.