TP
07-20-2006, 02:25 PM
my first few months of eating a 100% raw diet went great. i picked a time/season for me to begin raw when i didnt have much going on socially, and was able to get in around 3.5 months or so without compromising in the few social scenarios I had. That whole time I was prepared to eat cooked in social scenarios, and had a couple close calls, but managed to stay all raw.
starting in May, social events started happenning more frequently and I found myself having to test my preplanned theory, which has been to eat some cooked food in social circumstances in order to avoid the raw spotlight that happens when trying to stay raw, and for convenience sake. at first it was fine, with me making pretty good choices and not going to the really no no stuff, and even sometimes staying raw. Over time though, when I've gone to eat a cooked meal, I've been finding myself getting more and more lax about the choices, and have ended up eating some real junk and even eating steak and pizza, etc.. A cooked meal for me is being ingested on average now on a weekly basis. I am not as able anymore to make the best choices in all of those situations. I find myself just eating whatever is there or sounds good. Last night at mexican food with family and friends, and I could have had a salad, but after having already succumbed to the chips and salsa, I chose fajitas instead. they were tastey, but i surely felt like the crap i had just eaten afterward.
I simply hate the way cooked food makes me feel. Full, fat, bloated, tired, sluggish, etc.. It takes a week or so for me to get the raw energy feel again after a cooked meal, and lately with the cooked meals happening on a weekly basis, I am not getting the clean and energetic raw feel back at all, and I miss it!
At this point it's a no win issue for me. I hate having to deal with remaining raw in social circumstances, and I hate the cooked food feel, so either way, I lose. Yet, I am still unwilling to stay raw in all social circumstances, so it has to be about damage control for me. I have been there and done that with staying raw in social circumstances, and simply can't stand dealing with peoples reactions/opinions/problems. I won't even draw the line at meat because I hate dealing with people questioning the vegan aspect. I have been there and done that as well with being a hermit and avoiding social circumstances as well, and that obviously doesn't work for overall happiness. In some social scenarios, I can stay raw because there is enough good raw food available and people who know I am raw, and for whatever reason it works out. In other scenarios, either there is nothing or not enough raw available, or I get weak and just end up eating the crap... But I will continue to try and make the best choices I can, and honestly, there have been some cooked meals, or partially cooked meals that I haven't even regretted.. I have had a couple seafood meals that were outstanding on the tongue at least and didnt really bog me down too bad...
It has been about 5.5 months now, and I am still mostly raw with the exception of these cooked/sad meals here and there, and ultimately I am happy to be as raw as i can be. I am glad that I at least so far have had enough will power to not let the cooked food creap back into my daily habits. I guess it's not really will power as much as the enjoyment of the raw benefits and the disadvantages of sad food that motivates me.
starting in May, social events started happenning more frequently and I found myself having to test my preplanned theory, which has been to eat some cooked food in social circumstances in order to avoid the raw spotlight that happens when trying to stay raw, and for convenience sake. at first it was fine, with me making pretty good choices and not going to the really no no stuff, and even sometimes staying raw. Over time though, when I've gone to eat a cooked meal, I've been finding myself getting more and more lax about the choices, and have ended up eating some real junk and even eating steak and pizza, etc.. A cooked meal for me is being ingested on average now on a weekly basis. I am not as able anymore to make the best choices in all of those situations. I find myself just eating whatever is there or sounds good. Last night at mexican food with family and friends, and I could have had a salad, but after having already succumbed to the chips and salsa, I chose fajitas instead. they were tastey, but i surely felt like the crap i had just eaten afterward.
I simply hate the way cooked food makes me feel. Full, fat, bloated, tired, sluggish, etc.. It takes a week or so for me to get the raw energy feel again after a cooked meal, and lately with the cooked meals happening on a weekly basis, I am not getting the clean and energetic raw feel back at all, and I miss it!
At this point it's a no win issue for me. I hate having to deal with remaining raw in social circumstances, and I hate the cooked food feel, so either way, I lose. Yet, I am still unwilling to stay raw in all social circumstances, so it has to be about damage control for me. I have been there and done that with staying raw in social circumstances, and simply can't stand dealing with peoples reactions/opinions/problems. I won't even draw the line at meat because I hate dealing with people questioning the vegan aspect. I have been there and done that as well with being a hermit and avoiding social circumstances as well, and that obviously doesn't work for overall happiness. In some social scenarios, I can stay raw because there is enough good raw food available and people who know I am raw, and for whatever reason it works out. In other scenarios, either there is nothing or not enough raw available, or I get weak and just end up eating the crap... But I will continue to try and make the best choices I can, and honestly, there have been some cooked meals, or partially cooked meals that I haven't even regretted.. I have had a couple seafood meals that were outstanding on the tongue at least and didnt really bog me down too bad...
It has been about 5.5 months now, and I am still mostly raw with the exception of these cooked/sad meals here and there, and ultimately I am happy to be as raw as i can be. I am glad that I at least so far have had enough will power to not let the cooked food creap back into my daily habits. I guess it's not really will power as much as the enjoyment of the raw benefits and the disadvantages of sad food that motivates me.