I must be an idiot...but I'm back

[SedonaSun]

Lest that come across wrong, I'm not an idiot for coming back, but an idiot for HAVING to come back. :rolleyes:

I don't know what my problem is because I did 100% (except for the questionable "raw" items like bragg's, almond butter, etc) raw for 3 months and felt awesome as soon as the first week.

Then I had a burrito.

For the last 14 months I've been mostly raw, some raw, and quite SAD. I gained back all the weight I'd lost (but no more than that!) and I'm once again moody, teary, irritable, and overall miserable with myself.

I've had a hard time getting the "fire" for raw foods again like I did the first time. Don't know why, because I KNOW it works. So today I woke up, fed the beasties, grabbed a box, and cleaned the cupboards of SAD foods. Luckily hubby doesn't eat at home much, so I only need a few things for him and they're not all that tempting. I'll let hubby take the stuff to his friends in need. One could argue that's not a nice thing -- to give sad foods to others, but that's what they eat and they're financially struggling.

I didn't have the "fire" while cleaning, but knew I had to take the first steps. I actually cleared out 2 more shelves for my raw stuff than before :)

I'm turning 40 in September. I feel like how I am at 40 is how I'll be forever. I know it's not true, but it is if that's what I keep telling myself. So, I'm going to be raw and healthy.

It's funny, a lot of this time when I'm eating SAD, I crave the raw lifestyle. Then when I go mostly or all raw, I crave the SAD lifestyle. I'll just have to get over that :)

Two of the 5 other people in my building at work are supportive of raw and like raw creations :) One even brings me raw fruit and in the summer, brings me boatloads of grapefruit from his tree :)

They're probably the only two people of the entire staff who would be understanding and not freaked out by this, but that's okay...they're in my building--bonus! One of them even paid me last year to make raw foods for her and her husband.

So... hello everyone! :p

[Dimond]

Welcome back. :) You're not an idiot, just made mistakes. In fact you're smart enough to know that & that's why you're trying to correct them.

[rawpriestess]

Dear SedonaSun,

WELCOME BACK, WELCOME BACK, WELCOME BACK.

You are in the right place, because we have ALL done the raw/sad/raw/sad/raw thing too.

You are not an idiot, unless you think I am too, because I've done the raw/sad/raw/sad alot and am now on day 59 of being 100% raw. YEAH!!!

You've always been such a kind and loving person on this board, with lots of great things to share, you have been missed.

And now here you are, with even more great insight to help us along.

We can all help each other, that is why this great forum is here.

I know that you are a Christian, so maybe you can give your rawness to Christ.

If it seems difficult to you, then just ask him for some help, just to get through this day, or even this one meal. You KNOW he'll help you with this, I know that your faith is very strong, and that you believe, and I believe that this may help you through the challenging times, especially in the beginning, when it seems so easy to stray to the SAD way of life.

You've done this before, and remember how great you did, I am positive you can do it this time, even better, with more clarity, as you've had some practice, and trust me, I"VE DEFINITELY HAD LOTS OF PRACTICE GOING RAW TOO. LOL

You are in the greatest place you can be RIGHT NOW, because you looking at the challenge of going raw right in the face.

I used to hide behind closed doors and eat my SAD, I would pick fights with my boyfriend, so he would leave, and I could eat my SAD food alone, undisturbed, talk about FOOD ISSUES. I would buy two of things, so when I came home, I'd still have one left to bring in the house, because I ate the entire other one in the car.

I used to shop at different stores, so the clerks wouldn't see me buying all the sugar and dairy and wheat at one time.

I used to drive into town every day to buy food, because I would eat it all in one night, and wouldn't have enough for the next day.

I used to have parties at my home, just so people would bring goodies, and I could "just try" a piece of each.

I can't tell you how many ways, I used to sabotage my Rawness, and yet, here I am, 59 days raw, (again) and loving it.

It gets easier as time goes by, I know you know this. Staying raw is so much easier than going raw, and the first day is always the hardest, and the second, is almost as hard, and the third, isn't quite as bad, and then the fourth, and the fifth, and on and on.

So, know that you are with friends, and we all want to help, as we'll need your help too, and you are in the right place.

Because this is your first step back to feeling good each day, and dropping that weight once and for all.

and in case I haven't said this before.

YOU RAWK!!!!

Thanks for sharing your personal story with us, we can relate to what you have said, and are here, right next to you, walking step by step, and we are all here to help you through this.


YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

[Rawkinlocs]

Welcome back Sedona!

Girrrl, please. Do you KNOW how many of us have done that? You're not an idiot for it...you're just human.

Just look around the room and find spot you'd like and get comfy! Might see a lot more people than there were before you left, but there's still plenty of room!

[SedonaSun]

Thanks so much, ladies! I know the wise thing was to return, but it baffles me why I'd stay away from raw or have such a hard time sticking with it when I KNOW it works. I know I feel awesome, lose weight, have energy, sleep all night, have clear skin, lose the aches and pains, have mental alertness, prevent illness and diseases, etc. And I know a ripe, juicy pineapple tastes so much better than potato chips. So what's the problem? Why do humans so willingly do things that are so blatantly bad for them?

Hey, RP, your statement of having lots of practice going raw reminds me of something a writer once told me-- that nobody gets worse and worse at something when they keep at it.

Thanks again!

Looking forward to trying raw lasagna for the first time ever tonight....
Kelly

[Sharon in Colorado]

((((( Kelly )))))

There must be a lot of villages missing their idiots because I'm definately one of them! :p

It doesn't baffle me so much, now that I understand that there are some addictive chemical compounds in cooked foods, then mixing that with food memories, society pressure, cooking for the family, emotional bagage, social situations, holidays etc. etc. etc. it is easier not to be too hard on myself for it.

After another cooked food foray I'm getting back on the horse on Monday, the day after I turn 39. I usually do a 24 hour fast on Mondays....if you want to be my support buddy please send me an e-mail rawcurls@msn.com

[vegggeeemom]

Welcome back and it's great to see you returning. I have read some of your old posts and I'm glad that you're back and posting again.

RP, what you said hit home with me! That was some grat advise.

Pam

[Raw_gives_you_wings]

Its O.K. I too have fallen off the wagon!The coolest part is bouncing back!This place is awesome for keeping raw ....it REALLY helps!

[Joyful Mary]

Thanks to all of you who are willing to be so open and honest about your failings. When you share, it isn't for nothing because it encourages the rest of us to be honest with ourselves and others. The chain of helping each other along then goes on and on. I'm a newbie here and love this forem. Welcome back, SedonaSun! It's great to 'meet' you!