Errrr!!!

[ephmeralgrl]

I have been pulled back into the web of cooked food. When this happened before I had little problem getting back to raw but this time it has felt like a huge battle. I eat sugar till I am sick. Waking with a headache the next morning but craving sugar before I am even fully awake. Even when it does not taste good I want more. I have been emotionally twitchy, from crying and depressed to angry over little irrelevant things. I need to get back to a better way. I want to fill my body with the good energy of the foods I eat not the addictive chemicals added to processed foods. It ticks me off that there are no regulations about adding chemicals to foods to make them more addictive.
I am stepping forward to say how far astray I have gone and hope that by having some accountability I will gladly leave behind the cooked crap I have been filling my body with.
peace~
EG

[Revvell]

Suggestion: before eating something not-so-good for you, eat something that is. IF you still want to eat the other, do so... or, eat more of the good.

Please don't make this a battle. When one battles with oneself...who wins? You're not battling with food. Food is just inert. Doesn't do anything. Doesn't call to you...blah, blah, blah.

Sometimes one needs to hit bottom before going back up. This may be your way. Once at the bottom, you've got two ways to go ~ sideways or up. Your choice. :)

Another suggestion ~ while eating ~ good stuff or not-so-good stuff ~ take your time, savor it, see how it REALLY tastes, how it REALLY feels to you.

Most of all, play with your food.

Revvell

[juliebove]

Have you tried not bringing this stuff into the house to begin with?

[ephmeralgrl]

revvell-
you are so right I make things a battle. this may be the core lesson in all this. life is not compartmentalized, patterns of operating apply to all aspects. Thanks so much for helping me to see this. All aspects of my life lately have been a struggle. As my boyfriend says, its time to write a new story. Time to see that I can approach things differently. Have fun.

Juliebove-
I live in a house with others and although we buy our own food, there is the possibility of it being around and consuming it.

Thankyou both for your input.

EG

[Dancer]

Hi ephmeralgrl -

I feel your pain. I did that same exact thing. I was 2 weeks 100% raw in February and then I decided one cooked meal wouldn't hurt me. Well, it did ten-fold. It sent me spiralling backwards worse than I was. I couldn't get through a day without either Ben & Jerry's, McDonalds or cookie dough. I was a sugar addict from the moment I woke until I passed out at night from exhaustion. It wasn't pretty.

I had to decide (body,mind and spirit) that I've had enough and then just do it. There's no other way around it besides just going for it. I bought fruits and veggies, came home and cut everything up into snack size pieces and guess what. I made my first 100% day again yesterday. I'm going for number 2 today.

I can be done and you can do it. Just put one foot in front of the other and go for it. You'll be glad you did. Please use me as a shoulder to lean on because I know what you're feeling.

Peace and Love,
Dancer

[squidly]

I am so there with you. 2 weeks raw and then 'just one cooked meal won't hurt". Yeh right - that was about 10 days ago now and all I want is sugar and more of it. I still eat lots of raw but along with the family size block of chocolate too.

I keep saying I will get back on track tomorrow but tomoorw never comes does it. I seem so afraid to say no to sugar - what the hell is with that.

This morning I have packed some yummy fruit for work and a new day begins.

If only sugar was an illegal drug!!

No wise words here as my head is not with it but just some to say YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Have an awesome raw day

[mbf]

Hey , just wanted to say that sugar was huge for me to give up and now I don't or crave the stuff at all ! Trick was getting far enough along without it to stop the cravings. So stick with it !

Here is an article on sugar and how it pure poison to our bodies!

http://www.starbuilders.org/health/sugar2.html

Mara

[rawpriestess]

I hear you all, and I feel your pain,


big time chocoholic here, one pound hershey's every night, sometimes more.

The ONLY thing you can do is to stop, plane and simple, STOP and then make the decision to not eat it again, I tell myself if I REALLY WANT IT TOMORROW, I will eat it tomorrow, and then when tomorrow comes, I tell myself the same things, IF I REALLY WANT IT TOMORROW, and then tomorrow really never comes, I just keep telling myself that, and little by little, I have been able to get off the sugar, I make carob and cacao mousse, and warm cocoa, and chocolate ice cream, and that is all wonderful, but Hersheys' hasn't touched my lips or my hips for over a month, and counting!!! YES!!!

[ephmeralgrl]

hey all!
just revisiting an old thread, but a reoccuring struggle. thanks everyone for your advise and empathy. For a short period I went down the road of having a cocktail in the evening, "oh its not sugar, its just a little drink" I would tell myself. But when I started wanting more I knew it was time to quit. There are those who's sugar cravings manifest as candy and those who get it thru alcohol. I guess I am fortunate that I crave the candy version, yet recognize its a short step to the alcohol version. I love it when I have gone off of sugar for a time and how sweet and good fruit or honey tastes. You can feel the difference when eatting it. A cell humming goodness rather then a frenzed gotta get more sugar crack state.
peace and blessings~
epgrl

[lissomllama]

Don't worry, just get back on the horse. We've all been there and the comforting thing is that if you weren't dedicated to this lifestyle, you wouldn't be here on this message board. You already know that you are a raw foodist at your core, you just need to go through your process, and without failure we wouldn't have anything to compare the good things to. You know what you need to do and you'll be just fine. It's hard work changing onesself for the better.

[Nenyath]

I know excactly how it feels! I've been there myself and could easely get mysekf there again, I just don't want to. If filling yourself up on raw before eating the other does not help, then try and make really good treats, raw I mean, make a chocolate pie, anything you like and make sure you always have some raw and well tasting raw alternative within reach! Good luck and have stranght, you are way stronger than them cravings!

Fly forever free!

[rawpriestess]

please know that MOST -- if not ALL -- people go on and off raw many times. I certainly have.


The true key here is to just get back to doing what works, and that is eating raw.

Oh, I've done it many ways, but each time it gets a little easier, it feels more like "home" to me, and I feel free-er in my choices.

Eating raw, won't feel like a deprivation that you need to cheat with, eating raw will eventually feel like the "right" choice, and all other foods, won't feel like foods.

right now at 100+ days raw, I have been dreaming of food, I went back and forth with this for a while, saying, "OH, no, I CAN'T dream about cooked food, maybe I will eat in when I am awake." because I know how the body processes this stuff, just like I was awake, then I went through the "it's okay, it's only a dream, allow it to be what it is." stage.

and that is okay too, even if I DID eat cooked food it would be okay, because life is a process, and shouldn't be a struggle EVER,

so put off until tomorrow, to eat the cooked food, and eat raw, just for today, don't worry about tomorrow, then tomorrow you can just eat raw, and not worry about the next day, and if at any time you truly wish to eat cooked food,and you make it a conscious choice to do that, that's okay too, and really take notice of how you feel and what you are tellng yourself.

I would rather see anyone eating cooked food their entire life and NOT eat raw, and be happy and content, than to see someone eat raw and be misserable.

Life is way too short to be unhappy, so be happy and eat whatever works for you.

[ephmeralgrl]

once again thanks all for your responces. I feel at peace these days with where I am. Each moment is an opportunity for letting go. Of not holding on to an idea, weather that idea is about sugar, or completly rigid in my "gotta eat raw" thinking. Its that rigidity that brings on suffering, no matter the "rightness/or wrongness" of what I am trying to achieve. In fact it is the letting go of these "rules" that allows me the freedom to enjoy myself and more often make healthier choices. Guess that iswhy I steer away from labeling myself a rawfoodist, a vegan, a whatever. This moment I am what I am, the next moment I am a different being.
peace~
epgrl