The Feeding of Baal Theory

[Rawist]

I have a lot of emotional garbage, character defects coming to the surface because I'm raw. Things that I really don't want to happen get thrown right it my face sometimes seemingly just to test me. I don't want to fail and act out in some way that would be disappointing for me. Any experiences or advice on how to deal with troubling emotions? They really seem huge and overwhelming. If I don't feed my negative emotions, I'm sure they'll die down and go away someday but the waiting is the hardest part. Really, I'm in a lot of pain here, help! :confused: :mad: :eek:

[sweetgoddess]

Bless those emotions--they will lead you to greater growth, dont try to fight them. Try writing about them, let them out is the point any way you can think of. :o :eek: :mad: :( :cool: Emotional detox is necessary if you want true growth/change.
--writing is great because you can look back and see growth--it will blow youre mind. Blessings, blessings, blessings to you as you heal
Warm hugs~

[Sweet lips]

Rawist,

Please do not be hard on yourself - I know what it is like to feel broken, and have these emotional moments and putting all the pieces back together. Sometimes , the pain is so unbearable that you do not feel as though you can make it through the next minute, and then some days are doable-But remember 'weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning' our days and nights are not the same lengths as the universe (however you believe), and remember there will be peace and joy will be yours again, because for every negative there is a positive.

It is a blessing that you are feeling these emotions and you are numb- where there is a negative, there is always a positive. As SweetGoddess suggested -let it out, process it, write it but let it come with your change as you will be amazed at your growth.

Please whatever you do, don't supress what you are feeling as it can effect you physically. The fact that you asked for help and shared it a positve. You mentioned that you had character defects - now, look at all the wonderful things that make you up, you have reached out here and offered assistance, that is a positive - I will be thinking of you as you go through this journey and sending peace, joy, love and hope your way.

[Rawist]

Thanks sweetgoddess, I'll try to see my emotions as blessings (wince). I couldn't fight them if I wanted to, they're much to overwhelming. Writing on here helps. Yes, "Emotional detox is necessary if you want true growth/change." I'll have to go through all I've journaled on these different forums someday and see how how much growth I've experienced. I hope it blows my mind.

I can't help but be hard on myself Sweet lips, a tough habit to break, but I'll try. The pain is extremely high, but I guess it's physically impossible that it can be too much to handle. Just a lot of processing going on at a rapid pace through my system.

The Urantia Book: P.153 - §3 You have unwittingly read the truth when your eyes rested on the statement "A day is as a thousand years with God, as but a watch in the night." One Paradise-Havona day is just seven minutes, three and one-eighth seconds less than one thousand years of the present Urantia leap-year calendar.
P.153 - §4 This Paradise-Havona day is the standard time measurement for the seven superuniverses, although each maintains its own internal time standards.

One of God's days is a thousand years, how do you like that.

I hope peace and joy will be mine again and that every negative will turn into a positive. Yes, I can't wait to let the emotions come so I will be amazed with my growth. :) I guess I am somewhat numb. I do not plan to suppress what I am feeling. I will look to my good qualities, another tough one for a sick perfectionist. Thanks for thinking of me, I need all the help I can get and then some. Hopefully, I can give back someday. :( :cool: